don't lie to your heart

it is so true that my best friend arthur saying bout some ppl around me really not educate n unmoral...

i always mention bout i really really that we can hang out like the beginning... but he juz no longer love the music that we both like, no longer write me sweet poem, no longer make me smile... all he did was hurting me, insulting me n laughing me...

last few days when i was chatting wif derek, suddenly feel so bad for myself, i feel so pathetic to myself... i was earning only few hundred amonth few years ago, me n mel promised each other that we can eat better/proper food at a proper restaurant at least once a month after get my pay, n only cost less than 40 bucks for 2 person meal... we were so happy even juz once a month rather than now im spending more than tat for a day, i dont feel happy... i wish i nv meet the guy that hurt me so long n so much...

please dont tell me that im special to u while u're having so much 'special' gals in ur life!!!